So, I’ve never done a blog before (is that obvious?) but I kept being pushed to try it as a tool to use. I really don’t know what to say or who will even read this, if anyone actually cares to or not, but I will try at least.
I’m Brian. I was in the Air Force until I got wounded and forced to medically retire from it. The Service was everything to me. I grew up in it and lived in it my entire life. My whole identity was wrapped up in serving and doing my job. Now, that’s all gone and I feel like I’m completely cut off from everything and everyone I’ve ever known.
Life post-service: SUCKS
Almost everyone I knew while in the Air Force has moved on and I feel trapped here, in a relationship that’s dead with no outlets or anyone else to connect with. My “spouse” (only on paper) is disconnected completely and pretty much useless in everything that I “relationship” would have in it. All I hear is a statement made once, “I didn’t sign on in this marriage for you to be wounded.” Well, sorry! Not exactly like that was my plan! But even being partially handicapped, I still do a ton more in and out of the home than my so-called spouse does. I still reach out, try to talk, try to do things together, anything at all – but I’m just the source of money and benefits.
I really don’t know what’s next for me, if anything at all.